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Beautiful pain


Yesterday was the warning, todays like the morning after. I was a fool yes, but get these wise words. Your world was torn in half, you wake in its wake to start the mourning process and rebuilding, you're still a work in progress. Today's a whole new chapter; it’s like an enormous asthma.

Thunderstorm has passed you; you weathered it and poked its eye out. With the thorn bush that you used to smell the roses. Stopped to inhale, can't even tell your nose is stuffed.

So focused on the bright side, then you floor the gas pedal. And hit the corner fast, the more asserted, never looking back. May hit the curb, but every day is a new learning curve, as you steer through life, sometimes you might not want to swerve. But you have to, to avert a disaster, lucky, no permanent damage. Because they hurt you so bad, it's like they murdered you. And threw dirt on your casket, but you've returned from the ashes. And that hurt that you have, you just converted to fuel. And do start burning the past.

You're so familiarized with what having to swallow this pill is like. It happens all the time; they take your heart and steal your life. And it's as though you feel you've died, because you've been killed inside. But yet you're still alive, which means you will survive. Although today you may weep cause you're weakened. And everything seems so bleak and hopeless, the light that you're seeking. It begins to seep in, that's the only thing keeping you from leaping off the deep end.

And I'm pulling for you to push through this feeling. And with a little time that should do the healing, and by tomorrow you may even feel so good that you're willing to forgive me even after all you been put through, this feeling of resilience is building. And the flames are burning quick as fire would through this building. You're sealed in, but you're fireproof flame retardant, you withstood it

And as you climb up to the roof you're just chilling, you look down.


Because you're so over 'me, you could put the heel of your foot through the ceiling.
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